It’s been another year since posting anything up here, and although I always keep meaning to, I never find I have a lot to say that I think people want to hear. Zalo has really taken a back seat over the past year, uncomfortable to really be around people without an owner or someone to actually be there for. Ive been to a few events such as Mancsbound, and when with some friends, Ive found the essence of what I love about pupping.
I’m now living in Manchester City centre. I thought it would allow me to get closer to friends to spend more time with, but mostly its been an opportunity for friends from afar to come and spend time with me here, as no-one really wanted to come to Stoke. At least there are events and things going on here in Manchester.
Still feels like I’m in a holding pattern with my life though. Met someone I really really cared about, only for him to then disappear on me because I couldn’t commit to a full on relationship just yet. I don’t think I ever will be able to though.
People ask if I’m ok, and I reply that I am, and the truth is I am ok. Just ok. I feel luckier than many people out there in that I have a good job, a good home and I’m sorta happy just being on my own and revelling in TV, games and other solo stuff. I think I need to work a little more on being more than ok though, so hopefully I’ll be able to remember to post a bit more.
I kept my diary clear this year of what events and things I was going to do, but yesterday I booked Gran Canaria Fetish Week just so that I’d have something to look forward to. Ill be off to Kennel Klub, Collared and Alert tomorrow to see if the “scene” here has any more allure when I’m showing new guys around. I’m looking forward to meeting WerePaws who Ive been chatting to for over a year but never met up with. It’ll be their first pup event they’re attending.
I’d still love to find a handler, an owner, or a pack to belong in… rather than just feeling like the littlest hobo of the pup world…. oh well.. there’s a place, it keeps on calling me… down the road… hehe.